ystd was a total mess. i've decided that i need to pour it all out.

physics test was a total shit. i couldnt finish half of the paper although i studied for it.. late into the night (because of cheerleading practice) and early in the morning.

and then we had track and field meet. me and the girls in my class took part in the 8x50m race and i was super confident that we confirm confirm x10000 get a position. when the baton was passed to me, we were already leading.. the gold medal was just right in front of me and i ran with allll my might. i really dont noe wadd happened to me.. when i passed the baton to malvina it just slipped off between our hands and the baton flew away. and in a fluster we went after the baton and malvina continued running. she passed it to sara who was the last runner. i saw her ran with all her might.. n we came in fourth. i just squat down immediately and burst into tears. i felt reallly sorry and i totally hate myself. the girls hovered arnd me n started comforting me. i noe they didnt blame me but i just cant help but blame myself. its totally my fault. i cant help but think that panther could have achieved 8 golds if not for me and i cant help but think that 1908's name could have been mentioned if not for me....... im sorry weixuan, liwen, jingyi, jasmin, sinyee, mal and sara. im really sorry )':
it's the first time i see such a sad look on malvina's face. n i noe she secretly blames herself for the lost. i felt so guilty. im sorry i could hav gave a good pass to u. im sorry.
i saw no.4 running with all the energy she had to save the horrible mistake that i made.. but.. i really let u down. im sorry sara ):

it made me even more determined to win the cheerleading competition after all these mess. i really really enjoyed the whole cheerleading routine. n everyone was full of praisesand i thought 'yes! we made it, after all these effort that we put in.' it was a super horrible feeling when it was announced that we were none of the top three. my heart sank totally. sara cried. i looked at her and cant help to think that 30april is a total shit day. everything got screwed.

i hate ystd. i hate 30april!

here's the link of our cheerleading performance. take a look. i totally cant figure out y we didnt win.
http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v188/raindrops_jx/Panther%20Cheerleading%20300408/?action=view&current=PantherCheerleading.flv

third princess

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